I need a break from reality.

Letting go of the relationships that don't serve you leaves room for the one who deserves you.

Hello all.

Life has been hectic.
Yeah, very. I feel like I can't breathe. Everything's too packed, too concentrated. Work is killing me, especially when I have to tackle PW, studies and CCA at the same time. I don't feel happy at all. I feel sad, I feel like leaving everything behind and running off to somewhere far.
I wanna get away from all these mess that I've made. I want to get away from people that I'm unhappy with.
But I can't. There's something pulling back, but I don't know what. There's nowhere for me to head to anw. I chose the path, and therefore, I'll have to stick with it. I can't expect myself walking the other path too. Everything will be much too complicated.
Well, at least it saves me the energy of planning what I want to wear for school every morning.

I hate July.
July has been sucky. And to make it worse, my birthday falls on this month. I thought everything should be happy, that everything'll go my way. But I was wrong.
Everything's moving backwards. Defying gravity.
I want to have fun. I want to run. Run as far away as I can.

I cried yesterday night.
Called Claudia, talked to her for about an hour, and felt much better. At least I know that there's someone who's feeling the same way as I am.
Everyone's confused. Everyone's crumbling, but we don't have the energy to crumble any further.

I cried this morning when I woke up. Guess I was pretty disappointed with somethings, and I started to think. Called Jason, talked to him and all.
The only thing I have now is faith.
Faith that everything will change for the better.
That something is worth holding on to.
That there'll be someone here to catch me when I fall.

I need a break from reality.