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Have you ever done something that you never did wanted to do or felt that your actions were wrong and you are disgusted by what you are doing ?
i have.

its stupid to control a person, especially when its someone you love.
the feeling of being controlled sucks to the core, makes you feel like some jail bird or something.
i hate being controlled, yet i'm doing it to someone else.
it isn't right, yes.
and now, i'm seriously feeling disgusted about it, that i can't even do this anymore.
it sucks to be controlled.
it sucks even more to know that you are controlling someone when you don't want to.
i don't want to do this anymore.
i seriously don't .. im sick of it.

it sucks too, to know that someone doesn't trust you anymore, or you can't trust the person.
Trust.
It isn't as easy, actually.
I'm trying, i really am, but i just can't seem to get it right.
something just stops me.

oh well, i don't know.
somehow, i don't even know what im doing anymore.