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i'm going nuts.
& i'm having mixed emotions right now.
i don't know why, but its just this weird feeling.

i'm doing what MissJessie told us today : trying to resist the air as much as you can.
But of course, i'm not doing that warm-up now.
i'm just resisting something.
something that i think will hurt me more.

i should be happy.
but don't know why I ended up this way.
i suddenly feel so dumb right now.
I did & said all the wrong things.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
why can't I be myself ? stoooopiddddddd me.

i think i'll just continue resisting till theres no more energy left.
ahhaaaa.
the most i'll get hurt again.
i'm already immune to it :}